Friday, December 30, 2005

Not happy about it

Weighed this morning and was hoping to see a loss, but nothing. Nada. Zilch. Zipola. Granted, I've only been back to NS since Monday so it's not been a full week yet, but I really thought I'd at least see a pound gone. I am annoyed. I hope going off over the holidays didn't royally screw me up to where now I won't lose at all. Hopefully next week's weigh in will be better. I'll keep you posted.

Wednesday, December 28, 2005

Moving in the right direction

Hi all! I hope everybody had a great Christmas. Mine was good. I am glad that it is over though so I can get back to eating more healthy. I'll admit that these past few weeks have been pretty sweet (literally) because of all of the treats that have come into my home. I've done pretty good about not going overboard, but I have ate what I wanted lately. I restarted NS Monday though and, so far, seem to be moving in the right direction. The first day back on plan was hard though. My stomach was rumbling all evening. But I forced myself not to give into temptation, drank some more water and went to bed. Tuesday was a bit better. Still had the growlies at bedtime, but again ignored them. Hopefully today they won't come visit me at bedtime. If memory serves me right, the first two days on NS back when I first started were my hardest too and then after that things seemed to fall into place. At least I'm hoping that's how they were and will be again:)

I dont' know if I'd mentioned getting a treadmill for Christmas or not. Well, I didn't get it, but am going to go pick one up this weekend. I had told hubby that I really really wanted one for christmas, but I guess that even though he acted like he'd not gotten my gift yet that he already had when I started talking about the treadmill. Oh well. No biggie. I loved what he did get me (camcorder) and will just buy my own treadmill. I already have a space cleared out for it, have researched different models online and pretty much know what one I want. Now it's just getting over to the mall to pick it out. I think it will be the best investment I'll make too. Not just for my health, but also for my family's since they'll be able to use it too.

Well, guess that's it. I'll be back Friday with my official weigh-in for my first week back on track. Talk to you all then.

Saturday, December 24, 2005

Tis the Season...

I thought I would share with you some history about one of my favorite Christmas songs and give you the list of the "ASCAP (The American Society of Composers, Authors and Publishers) Top 25 Holiday Songs." What are the holidays without a little music!

1. Santa Claus is Coming to Town (one of the oldest songs of the 25 - 1934)
2. The Christmas Song (Chestnuts Roasting over an Open Fire)
3. Have Yourself a Merry Little Christmas (Introduced in motion picture "Meet me in St. Louis" in 1944)
4. Winter Wonderland (One of the two oldest songs of the 25 - 1934)
5. White Christmas (Introduced in the motion picture "Holiday Inn" in 1942; The most recorded song with well over 500 versions in dozens of languages)
6. Let it Snow, Let it Snow, Let it Snow
7. I'll Be Home for Christmas
8. Jingle Bell Rock
9. Rudolph the Red Nosed Reindeer (Written by Johnny Marks)
10. Little Drummer Boy
11. Sleigh Ride (Originally written as an instrumental piece and first performed in a concert conducted by Arthur Fiedler at Symphony Hall in Boston, MA in 1948)
12. Silver Bells (Introduced in the motion picture (The Lemon Drop Kid in 1950)
13. It's the Most Wonderful Time of the Year
14. Feliz Navidad
15. Rockin' Around the Christmas Tree
16. Blue Christmas
17. Frosty the Snow Man
18. A Holly Jolly Christmas
19. I Saw Mommy Kissing Santa Claus
20. Here Comes Santa Claus (Right down Santa Claus Lane)
21. (there's no place like) Home for the Holidays
22. Santa Baby
23. It's Beginning to Look a Lot Like Christmas
24. Carol of the Bells
25. Wonderful Christmastime (Newest song of the 25 - 1979)

"Silent Night" was written and first performed on Christmas Eve at St. Nikolas Church, in Oberndort, Salzburg, Austria in 1818. According to legend, the church organ was broken and the town was snowbound. Church vicar Joseph Mohr wrote the lyrics on the spot. Choir Director, Franz Gruber, composed the original melody for two voices and choir with guitar accompaniment, just in time for midnight mass.

On this note, I will end by wishing you all a very Merry Christmas and the joy of the sound of music this holiday season!

Friday, December 23, 2005

Weigh In

Another maintain for the week. I'm happy about that, but will be happier when I get back to losing. After Sunday, I'm going back at the NS plan and exercise full force. I am ready to see lower numbers on the scale.

Friday, December 16, 2005

So far, So good

Weighed this morning and am at 245 so up 1/2 a pound this week, but hey, that's fine by me. Maintaining is harder then I thought it would be, but at least I've not gained five or ten pounds back these past couple of weeks. A half pound I think I can handle. One more week to go then the Christmas food and treats will be gone and hopefully I'll get back on track and start losing again.

I told hubby last night that once the holidays are over, I want the whole family to get into some sort of fitness routine. Be it walking after dinner, shooting hoops or doing an exercise tape or something, we all need to get moving more. I hope I can get everyone interested in that.

I'm off to get some work done around here. It sure would be nice to have a day of doing nothing but relaxing for a change. Maybe someday. Talk to you all later.

Tuesday, December 13, 2005

Think I'm almost finished

Whew! I've had some mad dash shopping trips these past few days, but I think I'm finally almost finished shopping for Christmas. I thought I was finished last week, but I had five more people thrown onto my list at the last minute so had to buy for them. The house is decorated, the tree is up, most of the presents are wrapped. I'm NOT baking cookies this year so I dont' have to deal with that or have the temptation laying around. We only have two parties that we are going to this year also. Only one will have tons of junk food. The other is at my parents and they are really healthy eaters. Only a couple of tempting treats and the rest is healthy stuff. Anyway, I will enjoy myself at both of them and not let it get to me. This is the only time of year that I eat these types of treats so I'll enjoy and worry about taking the extra calories off after the fact.

I've actually been doing really good on my eating. I told myself last week that I was just going to shoot to maintain my weight loss over the holidays and it's actually had the opposite effect on me that I thought it would have. Instead of going out and eating all the tempting treats I come across, I've passed them by. Hmm, could this be a bit of reverse psychology at work? I guess I'll find out how well it's working when I weigh in. I'm still shooting for a maintain, but hey, a loss wouldn't be bad either.

Friday, December 9, 2005

Winter Wonderland

What a change a day can make! Yesterday you could see the grass and the roads. Today everywhere you look it is white! I'm not a big fan of snow. Sure, it's nice to look at, but I don't like to be in it at all. I don't like to walk in it or drive in it. Now, my kids on the other hand, are ready to go outside and play. They are dressing in their coveralls, gloves and hats as we speak.

No change in my weight for the week. I think for the time being, at least until the holidays are over, that I'm not going to worry about trying to lose weight. I'm going to shoot for maintaining instead. I'm not giving myself free reign to eat whatever I want, but I have realized that I just can't pass up the temptation of some of the things being brought into my home right now. I've not gone overboard on eating any of it, but I've HAD to have at least a piece of the candy or whatever every time I pass it by. Some of you are probably saying now to not even let those things come into the house if they're that big of a problem for you. Well, not an option. My hubby gets treats from his customers at this time of year and he will not let them go to waste. He feels that if the customer was nice enough to give him a gift then he should be nice enough to use it...even if that means gaining ten pounds over the holidays. So anyway, I'm going to keep following NS, but if a piece of fudge or a candy cane call my name, I'm going to enjoy it. It's not like I eat like this all year long either. These things are only around during the holiday season. Not an excuse, I know, well, maybe it is an excuse. Ha! I guess I'm just trying to validate my reasons right now to make myself feel better about them.

Friday, December 2, 2005


Well, only down 1/2 a pound this week. I'll take it but I was really disappointed that it wasn't more. I really thought that since it had been two weeks since I stepped on the scale AND that I'd been so good over Thanksgiving, there would be at least a 2 lb. loss for this week, but guess it just wasn't meant to be. I need to step up the exercise now to get things moving faster, I guess. Apparantly, my body has gotten to the point that following NS alone isn't enough anymore. I really dread the thought of exercise, but if it will help me get to where I want to be faster then I guess I'll do it.

Thursday, December 1, 2005

Not the day I'd planned on having

Things sort of got messed up today. I'd planned on going Christmas shopping and getting a big chunk of that done, but instead of doing that I've been home with my son. He twisted his ankle last night pretty badly and couldn't walk on it this morning when he got out of bed. So, kept him home instead of sending him to school. I normally would have thought he was faking it, but he was crying last night because it hurt so bad. My son does NOT cry so you know he had to be hurting. He is doing better now after the ice packs and tylenol. He's kept it elevated for most of the day and is just now trying to walk around on it. He says it still hurts, but nothing like it did last night so I'm hoping he'll be good to go tomorrow. It's not swollen or bruised and he can rotate it without pain. It just hurts when he stands. I feel for him because I know how it feels. I broke my ankle a few years ago and it was almost unbearable at times. A sprain can feel just as bad.

It snowed here this morning too. First big snow of the season. We've had flurries a few times, but nothing has stuck to the ground. It stuck this morning, but I'd say we only got maybe one inch. It's pretty much melted away now, but there are still a few areas that are covered. Our deck still has a good layer of the white stuff on it. I don't like snow, but have to admit that it did make things look really pretty outdoors this morning.

So, I didn't get to do any shopping and I've been stuck in the house all day. I did accomplish something though. I pulled out the box of Christmas cards and actually got all of them addressed and ready to send out. I do have to get stamps, but should be able to do that tomorrow. I'm proud of myself. Usually Christmas cards are the last thing on my list to do. If I don't do them first thing after Thanksgiving then they sit in the box until most every thing else is finished.

I'm hoping that weigh-in goes well tomorrow too. I didn't weigh last week because of Thanksgiving and I'm anxious to see what the scale says now. I'm hoping and praying that it has gone down and not up. I've only had Turkey day that I've not been on program so it really should show me something good, but only time will tell. You'll have to wait until tomorrow to see what happens. Wish me luck!

Friday, November 25, 2005

No weigh in today

I hope everyone had a nice Thanksgiving. Mine was good except my grandma wasn't able to make it over this year. She'd said she would come, but that morning when my mom called her she wasn't feeling well. I totally understood (she's 97 years old), but it was still disappointing not to get to see her.

I think I did pretty well on the eating. I had planned on eating what I wanted, but watching the portions and only eating one serving. I did just that. I wasn't stuffed when I finished the meal like I have been in years past. Just pleasantly full. Today I'm back to eating what I should. I actually did well on figuring out how much to cook to where I didn't have leftovers to deal with today. Just turkey and that fits into NS anyway.

So anyway, I'm not looking at the scale today even though I didn't go overboard on my eating. I know if it shows a gain that I will be disappointed and I don't need that. Plus TOM decided to visit this morning and I always gain water weight when he shows up. I will just do my best this weekend and next week and then will show a great loss next Friday.

Wednesday, November 23, 2005

Happy Day before Thanksgiving

I'm trying to get a few things ready for our dinner tomorrow. I'm baking the pies today (pumpkin and peach) and the house is smelling so good. I have my meal all planned and am hoping not to overdo it (too much) If Nutrisystem has taught me anything, it is portion control. Let's see if I can actually follow that advice tomorrow.

It's been pretty busy here the past week too:

Business-wise: Our competition raised their prices so we've been getting tons of calls for new customers. That alone has kept me hopping. The phone rings almost constantly. I like it though. It shows that our business is growing. We did have a problem with an employee though and had to let him go. It was an ongoing problem which we should have taken care of ages ago, but didn't. Our fault, but now things should be better. It's amazing how just one person can bring on so many problems.

Family-wise: My son was sick with a cold the end of last week and over the weekend. He is NOT a good patient. Very whiney and demanding. Hmm, kind of like his dad. It must be a guy thing.

Diet-wise: I've not been following NS too well. I do good for breakfast and lunch, but come dinner I just can't stomach the food. I have been drinking my water though so maybe that will help.

Exercise-wise: What's that? I've not had time to do anything the past two weeks. Maybe I'll get back on track with that soon, but I'm not going to hold my breath. Exercise is just something that I do not like to do.

So, anyway, I should really get going on the things on my Turkey Day list. The cleaning won't get done magically. And the baking won't do itself. I hope everyone has a Happy Thanksgiving. Enjoy the food, your family and friends, and the football games (if you like them) and just have a great day.

Monday, November 21, 2005

Time for yourself

Remember to take some time out for youself this week. It will leave you feeling relaxed and refreshed just in time for Thanksgiving dinner.

Friday, November 18, 2005

The Big 4-0!

I did it! I did it! Weighed this morning to a two pound loss for the week which put me at a total of 40 lbs. lost. YeeHaw! I can't believe it! I'm so excited! I still have a lot more to lose, but I'm getting there. On to the next ten!

Friday, November 11, 2005

I'm on a roll!

Hopped on the scale this morning and was pleasantly surprised to see another 1.5 lb. loss for the week. That makes 38 total now. Only two more to go to hit the 40 pound mark. I can't wait:)

I am officially down 2 clothing sizes, my BMI is down 5.8 points, and 15.5 inches have been lost off my body. Yippy!

Saturday, November 5, 2005

Doing the happy dance!

FINALLY! FINALLY! FINALLY! I forgot to hop on the scale yesterday so did it this morning and I FINALLY lost 1.5 lbs! I'm so happy that the scale has finally moved past that dreaded 250 mark. I hope this is the way things are going to be again, with the scale going down instead of up or hovering. I'll tell you that I was really getting disgusted with eating healthy when it wasn't working.

Yesterday was a good one too. My best friend came home to visit. She lives in Iowa now. She doesn't get to come home to visit often, but when she does I will drop whatever I'm doing to see her. She brought her three kids with her, all sweeties. She called me yesterday to see if I was free to come visit. I sure was. As a matter of fact, I'd been pacing the floor waiting for her phone call to come. I really needed the break. After all that has been going on this past week, the visit with her felt so good. We just sat around and talked and played with the kids. I absolutely adore her children. B is such a smart little kid and comes up with some really cute sayings. He's just too cute. M is also a smartie and has so much energy. I'd love to tap into it for myself. His devilish smile will win you over in a heartbeat. And S. The baby of the family. Adorable, chubby little cheeks, the sweetest smile. She fell asleep in my arms and, even though she did get a bit heavy, I wouldn't have traded that moment for anything. Made me wish my kids were still small. Anyway, we chatted the whole afternoon away. I finally left her house at about 5pm. I didn't want to, but figured I'd better get home to my own kids.

Today I'm doing the wonderful weekend chores. Blah. They have to be done though otherwise we'd have no clean clothes and the floors would be full of filth. I'd best get to it now. Everyone have a wonderful day!

Thursday, November 3, 2005

Some days better then others

Got news last night that my best friend is coming home for a visit! I'm so excited to see her again. She's bringing her kids too, who I just adore, so hoping that we're able to get together.

Her visit will hopefully be the good ending to a not so good week. This has been one of those weeks where I just want to crawl back under the covers and go to sleep. Work has been the main stress. If I weren't self-employed, I would have quit a long time ago. Being self-employed has it's good points, but right now I'm just seeing the bad....long hours, no free time, employees and their problems, etc. Hubby and I haven't been the nicest to each other lately either. He yells at me for something I didn't do and I yell at him for yelling at me. It's so frustrating at times. I can tell it is getting to me too because my neck and shoulders have been giving me problems for over a week now. The knots are telling me that I should really chill out, but how do you do that when you can't get away from what is causing you the stress in the first place?

Long hot bubble baths have become my salvation. If I can just make it to the end of the day then I know I'll have the tub waiting for me. Thankfully my kids are no longer small enough to think that they have to peek under the door to see what mom is doing. I can actually close the door and get away from the world for a half hour or so. Unfortunately, it doesn't make the problems causing the stress to go away. If only they would go down the drain with the bath water. Then I think all would be well.

At least my diet (sorry, lifestyle change) is going well. I only had one day this week that I ate off plan and that was when hubby brought home pizza. that seems to be my downfall. Every other day though I've stuck to the plan like glue. Hopefully that will show a loss this week and I'll finally get below the dreaded 250 mark. I hope so. I'm really looking forward to writing a different number down in my journal. Wish me luck. I'm off to deal with more stress inducing problems. Everyone have a great day! I am going to try to have one too.

Monday, October 31, 2005

Happy Halloween

HAPPY HALLOWEEN everyone! I hope you all have a nice holiday. I took my son out Friday evening to trick-or-treat. He had fun although he missed having his big sis tag along. She said she was too old to go anymore (she's 14), but I think if she would have been home (she had a party to go to) that she would have ended up dressing up too. We only go to family's homes so it wouldn't be like she'd be seeing friends or people she knew from school. She did dress up for school today though. They never let us do that when I was in school, but I guess times have changed. She went as a scarecrow.

We don't get trick-or-treaters at our house so that helps me stay out of the candy each year. The only person who stops by is my nephew, who is six. He should be by tonight. He doesn't like chocolate though so I bought him skittles and goldfish crackers. I am anxious to see what he dresses up as this year. Last year he wouldn't wear the costume that my brother and sis-in-law bought him so my brother wore it instead. He was a pizza slice. It was too funny! I have a feeling my nephew won't want to dress up this year either (he is autistic and doesn't like change on some things) so wonder if my brother or sis-in-law will wear the costume again?

Well, I really should get off of here. I want to go out and walk a bit before it starts to rain. Looks like it could let loose any minute now.

Friday, October 28, 2005

Weigh-In Day

Ok, hopped on the scale this morning and I'm back down to 250. Lost the two pounds that I somehow found last week. I'm happy about that. Now let's see if I can actually get below this infamous weight. I went back over my weigh-in's for the past month and I've not done very well at all. Keep hovering around this point and I really want to get below it. I hit the grocery store this morning so I'm all set on the salad fixings and other important NS foods. Now to just stick with it, bump up the exercise and get the scale moving again. Wish me luck!

Thursday, October 27, 2005

A long evening

**I had a whole post written, but when I went to post it to my blog somehow it disappeared so have to rewrite now. I hate it when that happens.**

Last night was the longest night that I've had in ages. I can tell I'm getting older since staying up past 10pm anymore is a problem. Hubby and I had to run by the bank to sign the paperwork for the truck we bought. The appointment was at 5:30, but when we got there the loan officer didn't have any of the paperwork done so what should have only taken 5 minutes ended up taking 45.

After leaving there, we went out for dinner. I am pleased to say that I did well by ordering a grilled chicken sandwich, no mayo, a side salad with fat free dressing and a diet cola. Although the french fries were really calling my name, I managed to steer clear of them.

Finished eating then were off to a city council meeting. We were on the agenda to see if the city would extend our contract with them (business) from two years to five years. They did. Again, though, what should have only taken 30 minutes ended up taking over 90.

Once we left there, we still had to go pick up the truck we bought. It was located over an hour's drive away. By now it was 8:30 and I was getting tired. We drove for what seemed like forever, but finally made it there. Of course, the guy we were buying it from was nowhere to be found so hubby had to call him then we had to wait another 20 minutes for him to get there with the keys and truck title.

Once I knew hubby was in the truck and ready to drive, I took off. He had to stop to fuel up, but I drove straight home. Now, I hate driving at night. I used to do it all of the time when I was younger, but anymore I let hubby do the night driving. It's not that I can't see. I'm just not as comfortable driving then. Plus, at this point, I'm pretty tired. So, I drove all of the way home with my eyes wide open, making sure no deer jumped out in front of me. Thankfully I didn't see any. I pulled into our driveway at 11pm on the nose.

I'm hoping this is the last late night that I have for awhile. I really need my beauty sleep. Ha!

Tuesday, October 25, 2005

I found the culprit!

I finally figured out the culprit in my weight loss woes. It's our business and the stress and change of plans that comes from it! The sneaky thing. Yesterday I was doing so well following the NS plan. I'd stuck to the menu like glue for breakfast, lunch and mid-afternoon snack, drank all of my water and had even decided what I was going to fix for my dinner. That all went out the window though when hubby came home and said we were going to go look at a truck that he'd found for sale. He promised we'd only be gone 2 hours tops and that fit into my time frame of eating so I figured I'd be fine. WRONG! We didn't get home until after 9:30pm. On the way home, hubby stopped at Casey's and picked up a pizza. Smelling that in the car all the way home was my downfall. I ended up dipping into the box well before we reached the driveway. Ate three pieces of the stuff! I was so mad at myself and mad at hubby for picking it up in the first place. Not much I can do about it now, but will definitely be taking more precautions from now on for events like that. Even if I think I'll be home in plenty of time to eat my regular meal, I will be taking some NS friendly food along with me on the trip so those pizza smells or whatever other fast food comes along don't trick me into eating them. So, now that I've found the culprit, let's hope that I can steer clear of it. I'm going to do my darndest anyway to at least be better prepared. OH, and we did end up buying the truck. So at least we won't be going on any more long distance drives for awhile:)

Monday, October 24, 2005

Getting just a tad bit annoyed!

After having a really rough weekend, I'm feeling a bit better today. Stomach is still making strange noises every so often, but I can handle that (I think). I weighed this morning and was so po'ed at the scale that I thought I was going to chuck it through the window! It showed a 2 lb. GAIN!!!! What the heck?!?! I've been sick, haven't ate hardly anything for the last three days and I gained? How could that have happened? I am now back up to 252:( and beginning to wonder what I have to do now to get this weight loss started again. I've hovered around the 250 mark now for over a month. I'll go to 252, 250, 251, 250, but never below. Why? I've tried adding more exercise to my day. Hasn't worked. Drinking more water. Hasn't worked. Swapped lunch and dinner. No luck either. I even started remeasuring my serving sizes, thinking that maybe I was eating more then I should be, but again no luck. Help!!!

I went back to some older files of mine and printed out the Body Boost plan from the NS bulletin boards (supposed to be a jump start for weight loss). I'll do that next, I guess. I don't have all of the NS foods to start right now though so will have to wait until my next order comes. That is supposed to be next week so not too long of a wait. In the meantime, I'll just keep trying, I guess.

Things have also been stressful around here business-wise so I figure that might have something to do with the weight not coming off too. I'm hoping things really calm down soon. Otherwise, I have a feeling I'll be stuck at this weight forever.

Anyway, that's how things are going here. I'll check in with you all later. Take care!

Saturday, October 22, 2005

Feeling a little under the weather

Not felt the greatest for the past few days. I think I might have a stomach bug:( I didn't even weigh in Friday so will try to do that when I'm feeling better. Just wanted to post to let everyone know that I'm still here, just kind of under the weather at the moment.

Saturday, October 15, 2005

Busy as a bee

Wow, was yesterday one busy day! Between getting the billing ready to go out to our customers and trying to get laundry done, I think I was moving 100 mph. You'd think with all that movement that I would have had a loss for the week too, but nope. The scale is still stuck at 250. I am wondering if this is my first official plateau. Seems like I have been hovering around that mark for the past three weeks, but just can't drop below it. I'm hoping for a big whoosh of a loss soon to break it, but I guess until that happens I'll just keep plodding along.

Saturday, October 8, 2005

Changing my weigh in day

Hi all,
I have decided to change my official weigh in day to Friday. Mainly because it is just too hard for me to remember to do it first thing Monday mornings. They are too hectic for me. So, as of yesterday, I'm down another pound to 250 for a total of 35 pounds lost since April. Yay! Guess I'm doing something right. I've been trying to get back on track and I think I'm doing just that with my eating. Now to get back into the exercise. I've not jumped on the trampoline for a few days now, which isn't good, but I know I'll get back to it. Just won't go at it full force like I did the very first day otherwise my calves will be yelling at me again. I don't want that to happen again. It seemed to take forever before they were feeling better.

Yesterday I managed to get out in my yard and get some things done. Put up my scarecrow for autumn decoration and set a couple of pumpkins around it so it looks pretty cute. Trimmed back some of my plants and mulched them for the winter months. I still need to trim some branches from my trees and plant a few bulbs that should be arriving any day now then my yard should be finished for the winter months. Hey, I just realized that all that movement outdoors can be considered exercise! Ha! I think that's what I'll call it too so I don't feel so bad about not getting on the trampoline.

Gotta go. Will talk to you all later. Take care and have a great weekend.

Monday, October 3, 2005

Monday weigh in

Hopped on the scale this morning and was pleased to see that I lost 3 lbs. since rededicating myself to the program. Now I'm back to where I was a few weeks ago. 34 lbs. total lost. Onward and downward!

I would like to lose 6 lbs. by Halloween. That would put me at a total of 40 lbs. lost. I think that is doable if I really kick my butt in gear. I am going to start setting mini goals for myself and see how that works. A friend of mine does that and she has great results because she is working towards something. Plus it breaks up the big picture. That big number that is my goal is just too overwhelming to think about sometimes. Breaking it down into 5 lb. increments shouldn't be as bad. At least that's what I'm hoping.

I noticed yesterday that a few of my clothes are really starting to just hang on me. I even put on some jeans over the weekend and the butt of them was practically dragging the ground from being so loose. I'm excited:) I can't wait to go clothes shopping and get all new stuff, but I want to wait on that for awhile. I know I obviously can't wait until I get to my goal, but I don't want to spend a lot on new clothes just to shrink out of them so will just wait. I do have some smaller sizes in my closet to help out, but a lot of them are way out of style. I might be getting thinner, but no way am I going to be caught in stirrup pants again!

Saturday, October 1, 2005

Back on track....I think.

I finally sat down and had a good talk to myself the other day about why I started Nutrisystem in the first place. I asked myself all of those important questions about why I wanted to lose weight, looked back at how far I've come, and also asked if I wanted to continue on. My answer to the last question was OF COURSE! I want to get to my goal. I want to be healthy. I want to live a long and happy life. I want to be able to do all of the things that I can't do now because of my weight. SO, I forced myself to get back on track, one meal at a time. I made it through breakfast just fine. Made it through lunch perfectly. Ate my afternoon snack. Good. Then came dinner. We went out. I had all of these thoughts of how I was going to fail racing through my mind, but you know what? I didn't! I behaved. I ordered the good, healthy stuff that I was supposed to, NOT the greasy stuff that I wanted. I asked for dressing on the side and only used probably a teaspoon on the whole salad. I had water instead of pop. I did good. Needless to say, I was very proud of myself. I also got in my exercise yesterday by mowing the yard and pulling weeds out of my flowers. My legs and arms are telling me this morning that I did a good thing. They're sore, but not so much that I can't move. Today I have stayed on track even though there are donuts (brought home by hubby) sitting on the counter trying to call my name. I'm not listening though. I will succeed on this journey! I will have bumps in the road along the way, but I will get to my final destination.

Monday, September 26, 2005

Just not in the mood

No, it's not what you're thinking. I'm not talking whoopee here. I'm talking diet. Nutrisystem. Exercise. I just am NOT in the mood to behave. I've skipped breakfast lately. I've not drank my water. I've gone out to eat and NOT picked the healthier stuff instead I've ate junk. It's been like this for at least a week now. I think a lot of it is because I'm almost out of NS food. I'm tired of the stuff that I have and it's just harder to stick with it when I know what's in the cabinet is NOT what I'm wanting. I do have a new order shipping out today so hopefully once that gets here, I will have an easier time.

As far as exercise, I have jumped on the trampoline, but not to the point of breaking a sweat. I did go for a walk over the weekend and that felt good, but again it wasn't strenuous. But I guess it's better then nothing.

No loss for the week either, but that's no surprise. How do I expect to lose anything when I'm cramming cookies down my throat? At least it wasn't a gain, but that's no excuse either. I'm trying to think positive, but sometimes it is just so hard.

I need to get out of the mindset that I have to hit McDonald's every morning after I drop the kids off at school too. I've been doing that a lot here lately. Usually it's just to grab a diet coke, but the past couple of times I've also gotten the steak, egg and cheese bagel. NOT GOOD! Well, the bagel tastes good, but the amount of fat and calories in it isn't good.

How do I stop doing these things? To help with the McD's situation, I guess it would help to not keep any money in my purse. Having to hit the ATM before going there would be a big deterrent for me. I could take a bottle of water with me in the car like I used to do when I first started NS. That would help too, I'm sure.

I guess what I need to do is just recommit to this whole thing. Look back over what I've done in the past to get to where I am now. What did I do when I first started NS? Was it just pure willpower? Or did I weigh and measure all of my food? Keep NS snacks handy for those times in the car when McD's would call my name? I need to rethink the reasons why I want to lose weight and get healthy too. The major reason is to live to a ripe old age and enjoy my husband, kids and future grandkids. To look good in my clothes. To be able to walk through the mall without breaking a sweat or getting cramps in my legs after only a few minutes. Just to be able to do all of the things that I can't do now.

Ok, so all of this talk IS helping. I feel better and hopefully will get back on track now. It won't be easy, but knowing that other people are reading this and cheering me on helps a ton. I don't want to let anybody down especially myself. I'm just as important as anybody else in this world. I should be able to do the things that will make me happy too. I can do it! I WILL do it!

Monday, September 19, 2005

Blowing raspberries at my scale

ARGH! This is my very first official weigh-in since starting NS in April that I am showing a weight gain! I've had gains throughout the week, but none on my "official" day. Up two pounds this week. I knew it would happen eventually, but things were going so well that I was hoping to be immune to those little weight fluctuations. I know that most of it is water gain because TOM is coming to visit soon, but still. It is very frustrating to see the scale go up instead of down especially when you are working so hard. Oh well. Next week will be better.

My calves are finally feeling better. I hopped on the trampoline again this morning, but only did a little bit of the video instead of pushing myself to do the whole thing. I stopped when my legs couldn't handle it anymore. As painful as those calves were over the weekend, I really don't want to go through that again. I hope to build up to the whole time within a week or two. It's only a 20 minute session so it really shouldn't take too long to get there.

Sunday, September 18, 2005

Oh, The pain! The agony!

OMG! I thought my calves would have forgiven me by now for jumping on the trampoline Friday, but no such luck. They are still screaming at me for doing such a horrible thing to them. Each morning, I have gotten out of bed only to have both legs tell me to lay back down. Once I'm up walking around, they do feel better. It is only after I sit down then try to get back up that I have problems. I've tried every thing to get them to feel better too. Soaking in a hot bath with Epsom salt, icy hot, leg rubs, ibuprofen. NOTHING is working. I'm afraid if they don't feel better by tomorrow that I won't even want to begin to think about getting back on the trampoline and that will totally mess up my exercise plan. I'm one that has a big problem starting anything new. If I can't do it every day until it is a habit, that habit never forms. So, any idea of how to get these calves of mine to stop hating me for exercising? If so, let me know. I'm desperate enough to try just about anything now.

Friday, September 16, 2005

Urban Rebounder-mini trampoline

Hello all! I received my urban rebounder last night from the cute UPS guy:) Immediately brought it in and put it together. Thankfully it wasn't more then snapping some legs on. I was afraid it would be more complicated then that. Decided to watch the video before hopping on to make sure I did it right. Did that and it really looked like a lot of fun. My kids really enjoyed it when I fast forwarded the tape. The guy looked like the bionic man jumping around. HA! So, this morning I hopped on the trampoline after I finished running all my errands, thinking of how easy it was going to be. I mean, it was just jumping up and down and for the most part the trampoline was going to be helping me bounce. Should be a piece of cake to finish the video and not be wiped out. WRONG!!!! That silly little thing whooped my butt! Seriously, after only 2 minutes of jumping I was wiped out! I couldn't believe it. Here you see all of these kids jumping on those outdoor trampolines and they can go for hours, it seems, without getting tired. Believe me, I speak from experience. My nephew, who is 6 years old, has one and he can jump on that thing all evening without breaking a sweat. So, here I am, huffing and puffing after only 2 minutes? What the heck?!!?! I stopped and sat down, but then decided to give it another try. Possibly just jumping without doing all the fancy footwork that the video showed. I made it through the 20 minute beginner set, but my legs felt like jello and were cramping up really bad in my calves. When I finally got the cramps worked out of my legs and was cooled off though I realized that it was fun. I think once I build up endurance that I'll be a hopping fool. I do think it's going to take awhile to do that though. The beginner video is 20 minutes long. I also received an intermediate and advanced workout set. I've not watched those yet, but figure they get longer and more intense the farther you go. I hope to be able to do that advanced workout within a few months, at least. My goal right now though is to just get through the beginner one and do all the moves without pooping out. Wish me luck!

Thursday, September 15, 2005

I'm singing in the rain!

Finally, some much needed rain is falling here. It's been so dry lately. My allergies have been bothering me nonstop for weeks now. I'm hoping the rain helps clear some of the pollen out of the air so I can actually breathe again.

In other news, I talked about getting one of those mini trampolines a few days ago. Well, I found one and ordered it. Should be here some time today. I'm excited. They just look like so much fun. I think if I'm actually having fun that I will stick with it better. The experts, whoever they are, always say that in order to make exercise a habit that you have to enjoy doing what you're doing. I haven't found anything yet, but hopefully the mini trampoline will be it. I'll let you know.

Monday, September 12, 2005

A little bit of this, a little bit of that

No loss this week. It's the same thing every few weeks. I'll do really good for awhile then nothing. I guess as long as I'm not gaining I am happy.

I've given up the gazelle for exercise. I was doing really good using it, but the past few times it has left my right hip really hurting. So painful the last time that I had to stop using it after only 15 minutes. I have decided to get a mini trampoline instead. I've heard a lot of people on the NS boards saying that they love the Urban Rebounder so have been scouting around for something similar. I will let you know how that goes. More then likely, my kids will confiscate it from me and I'll never get to use it. That sounds about right.

Had an awesome weekend. Hubby and I FINALLY got a night away from the kids. We ended up going to a casino, out for dinner then stayed in a nice hotel for the evening. The casino is about 2.5 hours away from our house so the hotel stay was pretty much a necessity since neither of us was wanting to drive back home in the wee hours of the morning. Unfortunately, neither of us won the jackpot. We went with high hopes and dreams of winning enough to retire, but we both actually lost about $50 each. Oh well. It was fun and it was nice to spend time with hubby.

Tuesday, September 6, 2005

A little bit of silver lining is showing underneath that cloud

My mood has improved a bit. My brother had his annual Labor Day get together and seeing friends and family, I'm sure, helped a lot. We were outside all afternoon enjoying the nice weather and played games and just enjoyed ourselves. People who I'd not seen for awhile were complimenting me on my weight loss and that made me feel really good. Especially since I STILL really can't see a difference myself. The positive comments really made me want to get back on track with my eating. So, today I'm back to 100% on NS. I even did a bit of exercise this morning again. Not as much as I wanted, but at least I was up and moving. Also had a nice surprise on the scale yesterday with it showing a 2 lb. loss for the week. That makes 33 total now. I'm getting there slowly but surely:)

Sunday, September 4, 2005

Little black rain cloud

Have you ever had one of those days when you just don't care about anything? You don't care if you get out of bed in the morning. You don't care if you get dressed? You just don't care.

I'm having one of those days. Or, I guess a better thing would be to say that I'm having one of those weeks. I've just not felt right. I don't give a rat's behind whether I do anything worthwhile or not. I just want to lay in bed and sleep. I don't want to watch tv, get on the computer, live my life. Nothing. Even when I do get up and do something, it doesn't seem to go right and that just makes me even more depressed. And, of course, when I feel this way I also don't care whether I follow my Nutrisystem diet or not. I've gone so far off plan these past few days that when I hopped on the scale this morning it showed a 3 lb. weight gain! And that just makes me even more depressed about everything. It's an endless cycle. Hubby even told me this morning that I'm no fun anymore which makes me feel even worse because now I'm bringing other people into this crap!

I'm hoping that I wake up one of these days and things finally look better and I'll snap out of this funk. I feel like one of those cartoons where you see the little black cloud hovering over the kids head and they are the only one who's getting rained on. Go away little black rain cloud. I'm ready for some sunshine!

Friday, September 2, 2005

Gasoline and Hurricane Katrina thoughts

I just can't believe how expensive the gasoline has gotten since Hurricane Katrina hit. In my hometown, the price ranges anywhere from $3.12/gal to $3.30/gal. And that's if the station even still has any gas to buy. I know of three stations that have already run out and have no idea when they'll be getting more. Scary. My husband drives a lot in his business and if the prices keep going up, we don't know what's going to happen. If he can't purchase diesel anywhere close, it could really lead to major business problems. I guess we'll just keep plugging away, doing what needs to be done though. Hopefully things will get better soon.

I've also been watching the news about the people in the Gulf states and wishing that I could do something to help. I've already made a donation to the Red Cross and I also received an email from my son's teacher today saying that the kids were going to be gathering water and nonperishable food supplies to send down there. I just wish I could do more.

Monday, August 29, 2005

Oh what a beautiful morning!

Good morning All! I have found my new motto this morning. It was sent to me by a good friend. It is so true and will be something I tell myself every day from now on. Especially those days when I just feel like giving up and going back to my old eating habits.

I'm in such a good mood this morning. My kids started school today so I finally get my house back. Peace and Quiet. I don't realize how much I miss it until I experience it again.

Weigh-in this morning was good. Another pound gone. Very happy about that. I have started exercising today too. I had said when I first started Nutrisystem that once I hit the 30 lb. mark, I would start doing some sort of exercise. Well, that 30 lb. mark has gotten here (a little faster then I thought) so this morning I hopped on my Gazelle (similar to an elliptical, I guess) and exercised away. I worked up a good sweat and feel fantastic now. I want to get into the habit of doing this every day. Wish me luck because I have a tendency to get lazy about the exercise after awhile. I'll do good for a few days, but then will miss one and that turns into two then three days until I'm back to not doing anything again. Not good.

Enough about me today. I'm off to get fit and healthy:) Later!

Wednesday, August 24, 2005

I'm so annoyed right now!

I hate being self-employed. I never liked working with the public when I was out in the work force and I don't particularly care for it now either. The customer is always right has always been a real annoyance to me mainly because 95% of the time the customer ISN'T right. They are just upset and annoyed and rather then start a full scale fight with them, you let them think they are right so they go away happy. What irks me the most is that I don't have any idea what half of these people are upset about. I'm not the one out there working with the customers. I am totally behind the scenes in this business. I answer the phones and make out the invoices. That's it. Yet, when people call and are upset over something that our employees have or haven't done, it is ME that gets yelled at. ME that gets called every name in the book. ME who ends up groveling for their forgiveness in order not to lose a customer. Doesn't seem fair, does it?

Monday, August 22, 2005

Weigh In Day

BLAH! No loss this week. But I wasn't counting on one anyway. It's still frustrating though to step on the scale and not see a new, lower number then the week before. It's TOM time this week though and over the weekend I really let myself go off plan. Went out to eat Friday evening to Long John Silver's, did NOT order the baked fish either. I ordered the greasy fried fish and shrimp meal and ate it all. Saturday I also went out to eat Chinese that evening. Sunday, my hubby took the kids to the amusement park and I stayed home by myself for some much needed peace and quiet. I did fairly good during the day, but come dinnertime I went nuts. Chicken nuggets and french fries for dinner, chocolate covered peanuts that evening as a snack, regular coke (not diet) to drink and wash it all down. Ugh! If I had lost anything, I gained it all back from the weekend eating fest. Oh well. Live and learn. At least I hope I learn at some point in this journey. It's not happened yet.

Thursday, August 18, 2005

If I scream, will anybody hear me?

I'm so mad right now I could spit nails. I decided to celebrate my 30 lb. loss with a trip to the beauty salon. I was so excited because I hadn't been in awhile and my hair really needed a good trim. So, I get there and the stylist (not my regular) is saying what bad shape my hair is in and that I need this treatment and that treatment. I agree on one, but the other was too expensive. Well, then she starts cutting on my hair. When I walked into the salon, my hair was below my shoulders by a good 2 inches. When I walked out, well, now I'm lucky if I HAVE 2 inches of hair on the back of my head! Don't get me wrong, it's a cute style, but it is NOT what I wanted. I don't like myself in short hair and haven't had short hair since I was in third grade. The style that I told her I wanted doesn't look anything like what I got. I've never went to the salon and come away with a bad haircut so this is a first for me. I know it is only hair and will grow back, but I'm still so pissed right now that I just want to scream.

Monday, August 15, 2005

And a drumroll please......

Official weigh-in today. Start weight - 285 Today's weight - 255 Total weight loss since April 18th - 30 pounds!!!!! WooHoo!!!!


Saturday, August 13, 2005

Woo! There it is!!!

My official weigh-in day isn't until Monday, but I just had to post today because when I stepped on the scale (yep, I'm one who can't help but do it every day) it showed me at 255. What's the big deal about that, you might ask. Well, that puts a full 30 pounds lost since I started Nutrisystem. I'm so happy I could burst. Doing the happy dance:)

Wednesday, August 10, 2005

I'm not an emotional eater.....yeah right.

I never thought I was much of an emotional eater, but boy did I find out differently a couple of days ago.

It had been one of those days when, no matter what I did, things just wouldn't go right. I was doing fine until about 3pm and then all hell broke loose with my eating. I had eaten 100% on program for breakfast and lunch, but when it came time for my snack, I guess those inner demons decided they wanted more then some cheese and fruit. I demolished the remainder of a bag of chips, two Reese's cups, a poptart, some cereal AND an ice cream sandwich all in a matter of minutes. When I finally pulled myself out of the kitchen, I felt like I was going to explode.

WHY? Just because I was having a bad day? What good came out of eating all that junk? I sure as hell didn't feel better. If anything I felt worse. What goes on inside my head that makes me think food is the answer to my problems? Someone please tell me.

Monday, August 8, 2005

Weigh-In Day

Today is my official weigh-in day. Lost 2 lbs. this week so down 29 total now. I'm so close to that 30 lb. mark that I can taste it. Hopefully next week I'll get there.

Sunday, August 7, 2005

New Discoveries

I have discovered a lot of things about myself since starting to live a healthier lifestyle. 1) I was in way worse shape then I thought I was. I'd lived so long thinking that I really wasn't that bad off, but since starting to lose weight and trying to incorporate more movement into my day, well....I'm in crappy shape! 2) I like to be in control. Before I had set my mind to losing weight, I would resist any and all help in getting started. Family and friends would offer advice and I'd take it with a grain of salt. "Sure", I'd say, "I'll try this diet" only to let it go out of my head the minute they left. Now that I'm in the right frame of mind though, I've found that I still have to be in control of everything. 3) I'm lazy. Yep, I'm still pretty darn lazy. I notice it the most when I KNOW I've got to get up and get going, but just can't make myself get up off the couch. Or away from the computer. Like now:) 4) My feelings are easily hurt. I knew this before, but never realized how much I let things get to me until now. I guess writing everything down has helped me realize that. 5) I can succeed. I never thought I was good at anything before, couldn't play sports, couldn't make art, never did well on a diet. But, now that I have been successful in this dieting endeavour, I realize that I can succeed when I put my mind to it. Discoveries. It's nice to discover things about yourself:)

Friday, August 5, 2005

Finally, someone noticed!

I am so happy today. I finally had someone NOTICE that I'm losing weight. I'm so happy and excited. I had taken the kids shopping this morning for school clothes and since I'm in this particular store all the time, I know most of the people who work there. Well, I was waiting outside the dressing room for my daughter when one of the sales clerks came up behind me and asked if I was losing weight? I smiled and said yep, sure am. She said she could really tell. Made my day!! I actually gave her a hug and thanked her over and over again for noticing. She probably thought I was losing my mind, but I was just so excited. I've been waiting for someone to notice and today it finally happened. Woo Hoo! Of course, I came right home and took some updated pictures to mark the occasion. They are above. Check them out. I, personally, still can't tell a difference in my body, but I do see a difference in my face. The chubbiness is going away in my cheeks. That look is adorable in little kids, but so not on my face.

Wednesday, August 3, 2005

A sneaky little mouse

Found out today that my hubby has been sneaking my NS snacks. No wonder I always run out of those first!

Tuesday, August 2, 2005

The Beginning

Let me introduce myself. My name is Lisa. I'm a 37 year old homemaker, happily married and the mother of two children, ages 14 (daughter) and 10 (son). My hubby and I started our own business a few years back so I help him out with the bookkeeping and phone call part of it during the day too. I've been heavy the majority of my adult life. I was a pretty thin kid, but once puberty set in I noticed the pounds creeping up. I had a hard time keeping the weight down in high school (170 by graduation), but after I got married and had my kids, I noticed the pounds really starting to add on. When I finally topped out at 285 lbs., I told myself that I had better do something about the weight.

I have been following the Nutrisystem diet since April 18th and have lost 27 lbs. I wanted to have a blog to help me keep track of the journey. Hopefully by this time next year I will have met my goal. I have to lose about 130 more pounds to get to what some say is the perfect weight for my height, but we'll see if I can actually go that far. I've never weighed 125, well, maybe back when I was 12 years old!, but that is the weight that is recommended for my height...5'4"....So I'll try to get there.

As of this moment, the journey hasn't really been that bad. Sure, the first week was horrible because I was hungry all the time, but now that my body has adjusted to the diet I actually have days where I feel that I can't possibly eat another bite. I still have problems going out to restaurants though and am trying really hard to get better with my choices at those places. I do notice that if whomever I'm with orders healthy that I will too, but if they order junk I'm right there with them chowing down.

I've not started exercising yet. I will probably start walking within the next few weeks, once my kids are back in school. That way I can go whenever I feel like it, walk as far as I can and not have kids asking me every two seconds to stop and look at whatever interesting sight they've found along the way. I have a couple of aerobics tapes that I'll try to do too, but those will definitely only be done when I'm here by myself. Don't' want an audience seeing my big ol' body hopping around the living room. That's for sure.

So, that's what this blog is going to be about. My weight loss journey. My metamorphosis. I know there is a thin person inside just waiting to get out and greet the world.