TGIF

Tomorrow is my daughter's 15th birthday. I am still having a hard time believing that she is really going to be that old. Seems like only yesterday that she was toddling around the living room, singing Barney songs. Harder still to believe that next year she'll be driving a car! Yikes! I'm getting old!

Anyway, I've been running around all week trying to get things ready for her bday. She is having a friend spend the night tonight so needed to make sure we have plenty of snack food for the late night chats, movies for them to watch, clean sheets for the bed, etc. Bought her bday gifts yesterday (new outfit, cd) so that's all set. We're taking her out for dinner tonight so she'll be choosing the restaurant. I have a feeling it will be Mexican (her favorite), but it might be something that we'll all eat. I figure both girls will sleep in tomorrow, but in the afternoon we're going to a Home Interiors party, which I was invited to go to. Not something that I figured either girl would be interested in, but they both said they want to go so will bring them along too.

I'm finishing up laundry this morning, doing a bit of cleaning and trying to do business stuff too. I feel like I'm going in a hundred different directions. Diet has been completely forgotten. I weighed this morning and since I stopped using NS, I've put on 10 lbs! I know what I should be eating, but for the life of me just can't get back into it. Hubby says I should just learn to love myself as I am, but I don't know if I can.

Ho-Hum

Hi all, sorry I've not posted lately. After all the excitement and stress of the past month, it's actually been pretty boring here lately. I'm glad though. I really needed the break.

Since things have calmed down here, I've been able to lead a more normal life. I finally made it outside yesterday and got the yard mowed. It took 3 hours(!!!) to do it, but at least it is now done. I couldn't believe how tall the grass was in some areas. Nothing else grows in our yard, but boy, the grass and weeds sure do! It felt great to be outside yesterday and I didn't want to come back in even after I finished the outdoor work so I cleaned out my car. Just being in the fresh air gave me so much energy. I can tell it today though. I could hardly get out of bed this morning because of the sore muscles. Ouch.


I got a nice Administrative Assistant Day gift from the lady that I help out once a week. She is a Mary Kay seller so any gifts she gives me are Mary Kay products. Normally it is a body wash and lotion, but this time she gave me the mint bliss foot and leg lotion and also a fabulous coral nail polish for my toesies. I can't wait to use the stuff, but will have to hide it from my daughter otherwise she'll end up using it all.

Speaking of the kids, they are home from school now so I need to log off here and spend time with them. I'm told that is what a good parent does. LOL

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Audit update

It's finally over. I made it through the audit in one piece. The guy actually got here half an hour earlier then he said he would so I didn't really have much time to get into a state of panic. Unfortunately, he wasn't a hottie:( He was very nice though and answered all of my questions without making me feel stupid. He was only here 90 minutes, but it still felt like an eternity. Especially when he asked me for some paperwork that I did NOT have! Thankfully it wasn't a mandatory thing to keep. Whew. He did say that we are going to owe a bit more to the IRS (imagine that!), but we won't know exactly how much until we get a letter from them, probably a couple of months from now. Great, something else to worry about. The reason for owing more taxes, at least, was not my fault. Apparently the state of Illinois sent me the wrong percentage rate to put in my payroll program. No penalties will be added, but I'm sure there will still be interest. I don't think the State ever does anything without adding interest to it nor would they ever admit fault. I'm sure if I called someone there, they'd tell me that I should have caught that mistake BEFORE I put the amount in my program. So, anyway, to make a long story short....I survived. I just hope we never have to go through that again.

An earlier post then normal

Figured I'd log on tonight and get my post up since tomorrow the dreaded auditor is coming. I tell you, I'm not ready for this guy to be here, but I'll sure be glad when it's all finished. I've been a nervous wreck this entire week and have not slept worth a crap at all. Last night, I kept replaying worst case scenarios through my head all night long. There's nothing I can do about the guy coming or about what he will find, but I tell ya, I've just about been driven to drink because of it. The only salvation I've had thinking about this guy is the possibility that he will be a hottie. Don't laugh! It could happen. I mean, surely not all IRS people are old man scrooges!

Diet-wise, I've not done well at all. I've pretty much been doing whatever all week, eating what I want when I want. I hopped on the scale this morning just to see how much damage I'd done and I am up 2 lbs. I figured as much and truthfully, it isn't bothering me. I know once the stress in my life settles down that things will get back to normal and I'll again move in the right direction. I did visit the website that Karon told me about and signed up. I've not followed any of their advice yet (sorry, Karon!), but I have been looking over the website and message boards each day to get inspiration. It all makes sense and I know I can do it. Hopefully, once tomorrow is over and done then I can get into it and get back to becoming a smaller version of myself:)

Time off

It's been another rough week here. I'm still trying to get things ready for our audit next Friday. I can't believe how many things this guy is requiring. I have them all, but all of last years paperwork is buried in my closet so it's taken some doing get it all back out.

Diet has pretty much gone by the wayside. I mentioned in my last post that I was probably going to stop using NS because of the expense. I went ahead and delayed my next shipment, but kept my account active just in case I can't do it on my own. At least that way I won't lose my discount. Anyway, this past week I've not even tried to follow any type of plan. I've ate some NS food that I still have left, have had lean cuisine meals a couple evenings too, but have also ate whatever I've wanted. Thankfully the scale is still the same as last week.

I know I can't go without some sort of formal diet. I've tried that in the past and it didn't work. I thought about just keeping my portion sizes small, but I seem to do that then add junk on top. Not good. So, will check out a website that Karon recommended and see what they have to say. I want to make this work.

Am I :-) or am I :-(

Another maintain for this week. Frustrating, but at least it isn't a gain. With all the crap I've been dealing with, I really am surprised that I didn't gain weight. Another thing that is stressing me out is that I think I'm going to have to stop ordering Nutrisystem. It's just getting too expensive. I've been reading over some of the NS board posts with others who follow NS without using their food and I think it is totally doable for me to follow suit, but it is still scary. I mean, I've not lost weight USING the ns food, do I really think I'll lose using my own? That is my stressed out mind talking now, but still, it does enter my mind. I am going to try though. I don't want to gain back what I have already lost.