Oh what a beautiful morning!

Good morning All! I have found my new motto this morning. It was sent to me by a good friend. It is so true and will be something I tell myself every day from now on. Especially those days when I just feel like giving up and going back to my old eating habits.

I'm in such a good mood this morning. My kids started school today so I finally get my house back. Peace and Quiet. I don't realize how much I miss it until I experience it again.

Weigh-in this morning was good. Another pound gone. Very happy about that. I have started exercising today too. I had said when I first started Nutrisystem that once I hit the 30 lb. mark, I would start doing some sort of exercise. Well, that 30 lb. mark has gotten here (a little faster then I thought) so this morning I hopped on my Gazelle (similar to an elliptical, I guess) and exercised away. I worked up a good sweat and feel fantastic now. I want to get into the habit of doing this every day. Wish me luck because I have a tendency to get lazy about the exercise after awhile. I'll do good for a few days, but then will miss one and that turns into two then three days until I'm back to not doing anything again. Not good.

Enough about me today. I'm off to get fit and healthy:) Later!

I'm so annoyed right now!

I hate being self-employed. I never liked working with the public when I was out in the work force and I don't particularly care for it now either. The customer is always right has always been a real annoyance to me mainly because 95% of the time the customer ISN'T right. They are just upset and annoyed and rather then start a full scale fight with them, you let them think they are right so they go away happy. What irks me the most is that I don't have any idea what half of these people are upset about. I'm not the one out there working with the customers. I am totally behind the scenes in this business. I answer the phones and make out the invoices. That's it. Yet, when people call and are upset over something that our employees have or haven't done, it is ME that gets yelled at. ME that gets called every name in the book. ME who ends up groveling for their forgiveness in order not to lose a customer. Doesn't seem fair, does it?

Weigh In Day

BLAH! No loss this week. But I wasn't counting on one anyway. It's still frustrating though to step on the scale and not see a new, lower number then the week before. It's TOM time this week though and over the weekend I really let myself go off plan. Went out to eat Friday evening to Long John Silver's, did NOT order the baked fish either. I ordered the greasy fried fish and shrimp meal and ate it all. Saturday I also went out to eat Chinese that evening. Sunday, my hubby took the kids to the amusement park and I stayed home by myself for some much needed peace and quiet. I did fairly good during the day, but come dinnertime I went nuts. Chicken nuggets and french fries for dinner, chocolate covered peanuts that evening as a snack, regular coke (not diet) to drink and wash it all down. Ugh! If I had lost anything, I gained it all back from the weekend eating fest. Oh well. Live and learn. At least I hope I learn at some point in this journey. It's not happened yet.

If I scream, will anybody hear me?

I'm so mad right now I could spit nails. I decided to celebrate my 30 lb. loss with a trip to the beauty salon. I was so excited because I hadn't been in awhile and my hair really needed a good trim. So, I get there and the stylist (not my regular) is saying what bad shape my hair is in and that I need this treatment and that treatment. I agree on one, but the other was too expensive. Well, then she starts cutting on my hair. When I walked into the salon, my hair was below my shoulders by a good 2 inches. When I walked out, well, now I'm lucky if I HAVE 2 inches of hair on the back of my head! Don't get me wrong, it's a cute style, but it is NOT what I wanted. I don't like myself in short hair and haven't had short hair since I was in third grade. The style that I told her I wanted doesn't look anything like what I got. I've never went to the salon and come away with a bad haircut so this is a first for me. I know it is only hair and will grow back, but I'm still so pissed right now that I just want to scream.

And a drumroll please......

Official weigh-in today. Start weight - 285 Today's weight - 255 Total weight loss since April 18th - 30 pounds!!!!! WooHoo!!!!

Lisa

Woo! There it is!!!

My official weigh-in day isn't until Monday, but I just had to post today because when I stepped on the scale (yep, I'm one who can't help but do it every day) it showed me at 255. What's the big deal about that, you might ask. Well, that puts me...finally....at a full 30 pounds lost since I started Nutrisystem. I'm so happy I could burst. Doing the happy dance:)

I'm not an emotional eater.....yeah right.

I never thought I was much of an emotional eater, but boy did I find out differently a couple of days ago.

It had been one of those days when, no matter what I did, things just wouldn't go right. I was doing fine until about 3pm and then all hell broke loose with my eating. I had eaten 100% on program for breakfast and lunch, but when it came time for my snack, I guess those inner demons decided they wanted more then some cheese and fruit. I demolished the remainder of a bag of chips, two Reese's cups, a poptart, some cereal AND an ice cream sandwich all in a matter of minutes. When I finally pulled myself out of the kitchen, I felt like I was going to explode.

WHY? Just because I was having a bad day? What good came out of eating all that junk? I sure as hell didn't feel better. If anything I felt worse. What goes on inside my head that makes me think food is the answer to my problems? Someone please tell me.

Weigh-In Day

Today is my official weigh-in day. Lost 2 lbs. this week so down 29 total now. I'm so close to that 30 lb. mark that I can taste it. Hopefully next week I'll get there.

New Discoveries

I have discovered a lot of things about myself since starting to live a healthier lifestyle. 1) I was in way worse shape then I thought I was. I'd lived so long thinking that I really wasn't that bad off, but since starting to lose weight and trying to incorporate more movement into my day, well....I'm in crappy shape! 2) I like to be in control. Before I had set my mind to losing weight, I would resist any and all help in getting started. Family and friends would offer advice and I'd take it with a grain of salt. "Sure", I'd say, "I'll try this diet" only to let it go out of my head the minute they left. Now that I'm in the right frame of mind though, I've found that I still have to be in control of everything. 3) I'm lazy. Yep, I'm still pretty darn lazy. I notice it the most when I KNOW I've got to get up and get going, but just can't make myself get up off the couch. Or away from the computer. Like now:) 4) My feelings are easily hurt. I knew this before, but never realized how much I let things get to me until now. I guess writing everything down has helped me realize that. 5) I can succeed. I never thought I was good at anything before, couldn't play sports, couldn't make art, never did well on a diet. But, now that I have been successful in this dieting endeavour, I realize that I can succeed when I put my mind to it. Discoveries. It's nice to discover things about yourself:)

Finally, someone noticed!

I am so happy today. I finally had someone NOTICE that I'm losing weight. I'm so happy and excited. I had taken the kids shopping this morning for school clothes and since I'm in this particular store all the time, I know most of the people who work there. Well, I was waiting outside the dressing room for my daughter when one of the sales clerks came up behind me and asked if I was losing weight? I smiled and said yep, sure am. She said she could really tell. Made my day!! I actually gave her a hug and thanked her over and over again for noticing. She probably thought I was losing my mind, but I was just so excited. I've been waiting for someone to notice and today it finally happened. Woo Hoo! Of course, I came right home and took some updated pictures to mark the occasion. They are above. Check them out. I, personally, still can't tell a difference in my body, but I do see a difference in my face. The chubbiness is going away in my cheeks. That look is adorable in little kids, but so not on my face.

A sneaky little mouse

Found out today that my hubby has been sneaking my NS snacks. No wonder I always run out of those first!

The Beginning

Let me introduce myself. My name is Lisa. I'm a 37 year old homemaker, happily married and the mother of two children, ages 14 (daughter) and 10 (son). My hubby and I started our own business a few years back so I help him out with the bookkeeping and phone call part of it during the day too. I've been heavy the majority of my adult life. I was a pretty thin kid, but once puberty set in I noticed the pounds creeping up. I had a hard time keeping the weight down in high school (170 by graduation), but after I got married and had my kids, I noticed the pounds really starting to add on. When I finally topped out at 285 lbs., I told myself that I had better do something about the weight.

I have been following the Nutrisystem diet since April 18th and have lost 27 lbs. I wanted to have a blog to help me keep track of the journey. Hopefully by this time next year I will have met my goal. I have to lose about 130 more pounds to get to what some say is the perfect weight for my height, but we'll see if I can actually go that far. I've never weighed 125, well, maybe back when I was 12 years old!, but that is the weight that is recommended for my height...5'4"....So I'll try to get there.

As of this moment, the journey hasn't really been that bad. Sure, the first week was horrible because I was hungry all the time, but now that my body has adjusted to the diet I actually have days where I feel that I can't possibly eat another bite. I still have problems going out to restaurants though and am trying really hard to get better with my choices at those places. I do notice that if whomever I'm with orders healthy that I will too, but if they order junk I'm right there with them chowing down.

I've not started exercising yet. I will probably start walking within the next few weeks, once my kids are back in school. That way I can go whenever I feel like it, walk as far as I can and not have kids asking me every two seconds to stop and look at whatever interesting sight they've found along the way. I have a couple of aerobics tapes that I'll try to do too, but those will definitely only be done when I'm here by myself. Don't' want an audience seeing my big ol' body hopping around the living room. That's for sure.

So, that's what this blog is going to be about. My weight loss journey. My metamorphosis. I know there is a thin person inside just waiting to get out and greet the world.