Starting Over

Alright, you all know how hard this diet has been for me these past few months. I've not been able to stay motivated or stick with it at all. The past few weeks I've actually been eating whatever I feel like, for the most part. And, truthfully, I've felt awful after each meal. The heartburn, the upset stomach, the feeling like I'm going to explode if I eat another bite. It made me stop and think if that's really how I wanted to feel after eating. It didn't take me long to answer that with a firm NO. So, as of Monday, I'm going to hit NS full force and get back on track. I know, you're all saying that instead of waiting until Monday that I should just go ahead and start today. But (yes, here comes the lame excuse) I want to have one last hoorah in the eating department before I go back to NS. I know, I know, that isn't a good reason. However, that is the mindset I'm in right now so don't argue with me. lol

I was looking over my NS profile the other day and here it is almost a whole year later and I'm not even halfway to my goal weight. I had hoped to be AT my goal weight by now, but because of these last few months and my lack of willpower it isn't going to happen. I'm hoping, though, that by recommitting myself to following NS 100% that by April 17th (my one year anniversary) I will at least be close to that halfway mark.